Last night I got so frustrated with Ally, I felt like crying. She was particularly cranky, bossy, naughty and clingy yesterday when I got back from work. I was tired and not feeling well, so that added to my frustration.
My frustration was not towards her, actually. The frustration was more about thinking that soon, there will be three of them to handle! Ally's getting more and more difficult nowadays, I don't know how she's going to react to the new arrivals soon. I've tried disciplining her and try to spend less time with her to get her used to the idea of not having me exclusively to herself, but then I would feel guilty and shower her with all the love, hugs and kisses again. I would scold her when she does something naughty, but then her sad face would send me running back towards her.
What can I do, she's just too cute! Daddy says she's got me all wrapped up around her little finger, but who cares? I'm not ashamed to admit that I'm obsessed with my little girl. It doesn't sound so healthy, I know, and may not be good for her in the long run. But I figured, these early years may be the only times I have to really pamper her, as she may drift away from me when she grows up.
I just hope that she won't in any way feel like she's being replaced once the babies arrive. And I hope there'll be enough love to go around too.
Will I be able to cope?
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