tak suka! tak suka!

Call me a racist/‘state’ist, but I really have something against the people from this ‘certain’ state. Especially when they’re my client. Another kind I can’t stand are those who think they own the Bank. Or the kind with so-called ‘connections’. Or the I-have-lots-of-money-I-only-came-to-you-to-help-your-business kinds.

These are the kind of people that make me want to quit my job.

Sometimes I don’t know what my purpose of coming to work anymore. Day in and day out, I slave myself so that people will get their money. And then by the end of the month I’ll be chasing these people back for money. And let’s not start on all the policies and procedures that I have to adhere to, the reports, the memos, the meetings……..

It’s just plain exhausting, don’t you think? Well, maybe I’m just getting older. Or perhaps it's the fact that I’m turning 30 soon and realised that I haven’t achieved anything significant. Except for, maybe, popping out three babies out of my tummy!

I need a change. A change so profound that it will leave me feeling fulfilled. Complete, as a woman AND as a person. Satisfied, that I have finally achieved something significant. Rich, financially and emotionally.

But taking such a leap takes courage. And courage is something that I don’t have.

I wish I have Da’s guts.

four years on, we're 2+3

Three weeks to our anniversary, eh? Hmm…shall we go somewhere romantic, minus the kids?

I don’t take bribes, mummy!

Unfortunately, the reward system did not work with Ally. She’s too clever for her own good!

I don’t know what else to do. Should I give up and pull her out of the school? Or should I keep on forcing her and risk her being traumatised? Should I give her more time? Is she really too young for school as insisted by Ma and Ayoh?

I guess I’ll give it another week or two. Then we’ll see how it goes. Kan, kan?

ally (and mummy) in school

Ally went to school. It’s been two days now. She’s really excited about it, as long as Mummy stays within not less than one-feet radius!

So yesterday and today, we did colouring, pasting, learned jolly phonics and sang. We sang The Wheels on The Bus, the Bangun Pagi Song, Old McDonald and lots, lots more. We were introduced to our new friends – Amanda, Ariana, Jefferson, Zoe, Zeeshan and Zeidan. Yesterday we had Coco Crunch for our snack and today, we were given porridge. We had fun, oh, so much fun. Except for that 30-minute stretch when Mummy found an opportunity to sneak out of the classroom and Ally cried like there’s no tomorrow. Teacher Su finally decided to get Mummy back into the classroom so that Ally’s not traumatic by the experience of school. Towards the end of today’s session, Jefferson suddenly cried for his mummy and a few others started to cry as well. Ally smugly held on to Mummy, as if telling everyone ‘Hah! I have my Mummy!!’.

I don’t know for how long this will go on, but I am going to be persistent! If not for the sake of her education, it’s for the sake of the amount of money that we have paid, which I doubt will get refunded in full if we pull her out of the school now. So I’ve come up with a ‘reward’ system, which I hope will work. After school today, I brought her to a stationary shop and let her choose two sticker sheets. I told her if she goes to school tomorrow and let Mummy wait outside, she’ll get more sticker sheets. She agreed, but we’ll see how it goes tomorrow.

Wish me luck. Please.