36 weeks

36 weeks along, and I feel like I could explode any minute now. I’m huge (although some people still insists otherwise), I can’t sleep, I’m aching all over and I can’t stop peeing. I’m constipated. Getting out of bed is a pain. Getting in and out of the car is even worse. Sitting down for a long stretch of time gives me major back pain. In fact, lying down also gives me back pain. I can’t lie on my sides either. My tummy will start to harden and I’ll have this contraction-like pain.

As much as I want all these to be over, and to finally meet my twins, I’m also dreading the delivery process. I was told by my doctor here in JB yesterday that there’s a high probability that I will have to undergo a C-Section because both babies are breech. She thinks it’s not likely that the first baby will change its position to head-down, as there’s not much space left for it to move. She even advised me to set a date for the procedure! I’ve never had an operation done on me before and I’m scared shit of the prospect. The scary part is that I’ll likely be awake throughout the procedure – Imagine being fully aware that you are being cut open!

But I’m keeping my hopes up. My doctor in KL is usually more optimistic, and I’m hoping she’ll have something else to say. I am really, really looking forward for my appointment with her next week.